stupid

sometimes i just get so sad i dont know what to do. i hate these mood swings that just hit me and i cant crawl out of them.

i realized today how much i actually dont know people. i hate it when you think you know someone. and then you see how much they actually have changed, and how things that were once special are not anymore. they have become the norm. i am sort of disgusted by the whole thing. i hate feeling like i did something when i know i didnt. things didnt happen the way you say they did. or the way you told people they did. why cant i just drop this.

anyway. i dont want to be thought of as creepy nice. what the fuck. i am not a suck up.

i really really want to go camping tonight, but i already promised dylan i would hang out with him since he is sad. i just hope everyone is going to want to go again soon with me.

i have eaten so many waffles recently.