you just want me in your bed.

im up so early.
i cannnot wait for ro to get home today. we have missed her while she was gone.
patrick and i are looking at houses in howell station. there is a real great one above where rob and daryl lived. but pat and i would live with rob. my feelings are mixed at this point.
i went to a life worth living with pat aqnd nicole last night. i really enjoyed it. i think it is a good forum for me to talk and express feelings.
i asked god to send me a sign somehow. i am trying to not look into things to much. but i did get an unexpected check from my insurance company for almost the amount i owe on my deductable. i have to pay it today and i got the check yesterday. and last week, the day before my insurance was due, i received a check from paul for $225.00. about one hundred more than he owed me.
ive had so many unhealthy reminders recently. i will be glad when i get the face out of my head. the name out of my heart. one day ill be free. for now i will settle with unanswered messages.
i just want to know, what did i do to you that was so bad that you must act mad at me like i wronged you in some way.
daryl and yesenia have an italian greyhound puppy and i am so jealous!
screen on the green tonight. i love mommie dearest. no more depakote!!!! i suppose no one will know what i am talking about unless you resided in houston with me.
george called me last night!