why oh why.

today i finished at the czar. my dad wrote a mean email to jim. i returned six thousand dollars of shit. i broke the screen on my phone. shopped for a shoot. ate a lot of food with sandi. bought new gold aviator glasses. made a fool of myself. got locked out on a balcony of a loft on the fifth floor for twenty minutes until a woman from the building adjacent somehow got into the building and then into the loft and let us out. i bought new jeans. im going to a members only club with lindsey and her friend scott. pretty much my life has come to this. hanging out with my brothers friends and going to clubs with homosexuals. i hate my past. i wish i could change everything about it. ive decided im staying the whole summer. i am going to stay with ro nicole and christy and pay them each fifty dollars. i am going to get a new job and keep styling. ill move to san francisco in august. and start school in september. tomorrow i have a shoot and then i have to drive straight to savannah and make it in time for the fashion show. where i will be reunited with so many people and a town with wonderful memories. i want everyone to go to www.borjagofar.com and watch my friend borjas movies of friends in savannah.it is really beautiful. i rented proxak nation that only came out in japan and i dont think i will have time to watch it. maybe pat and kyle can tomorrow. ahhhhh. no more crushes. i have to stop. i cant take it. i hate when i want something and cant have it. other girls go away. i dont care if you are more beautiful than me. and probably cooler also. and im sure skinnier. but arent i cool. i bought nw deoderant and it is peach flavored and i love it. oh summertime.