it goes like this, the fourth, the fifth..

im restless. tired. lonely. when will these days end. youd think after all the talking and explaining i have done, i would feel better. why is life so hard.
i made one stupid mistake after another today. bad ideas. bad follow throughs.
im so awkward.
when will i move. will leigh come with me.
being blocked sucks. being pathetic is pathetic.
my hair is curly. and clean but dirty.
this is all about agreeing and disagreeing. lying and telling the truth. loneliness and contentment.
two photo shoots this week. three magazines this month. one cover. one five page spread. one workout section.

cheers.

-l