i love conan

kickball was wierd tonight. there were a lot of people that i didnt know and had not seen in a long time. and lots of people i didnt expect to be there.

i keep getting in this daze. i dont even know if i am going to write in here anymore. i always assumed no one read it except christy and leigh. i guess maybe i am wrong. either way. i am not into internet drama. so im just blocking it out of my life. i want to speak of positive things, but its so hard to make myself do that. i want to surround myself with only positive things. i realize that i have picked the most wonderful people to be friends with. and to live with. matt is such an uplifting person. i really enjoy his company and his kind thoughtful words. its nice to have someone around all the time that i can always talk to. silly things and important things. really i have so many wonderful friends. so this goes out to you kyle, zach, zach, neal, mike, scott, pat, christy, ro, and all of the other people i see all the time. i spoke with my therapist today and it was so nice to have to explain who everyone is, and how many different people are always around. when asked to describe a regular day for me, i finally realized how much my life really has changed. i feel very fulfilled. i hate that i let little things get me down. i have come so far to let little things affect me.

matts room is painted. mine next. move in 11 days. i cant wait!
this is going to be the best house of my life.