maybe my number one.

i just watched hotel rwanda. i really could have cried for a long time. its so devastating. and i feel so ignorant for not knowning what goes on in the world.

recently i have been going to a lot of parties, and being quite social.



thats my prom dress. i sewed it all by myself. im sort of proud. no pattern or anything.

leigh isnt moving to san francisco anymore, which is really disappointing. but i have decided that i will be fine. i need to do something on my own for once. me and holden will be fine. i am going to live in the city instead of berkeley, but maybe with a roommate. im scared and im sad.
i really hope i get this job at the west egg. i need to make money really badly. i am broke. i think my phone is about to be turned off. this has never happened to me before.
tomorrow i am going to ellijay with my family to see their new house. we were all planning on going tubing but since they havent actually bought the house yet, we dont have the pass to do it. it is in this weird community, and so it is only two dollars. they pick you up at the end and drive you back. how nice. one day we will fulfill our summer tubing desire.

today pat rented sasquatch hunter. hes so weird.

i hate being sad. i have old memories. and knowing that life goes on without you. people might have better, more perfect lives without me in it. it makes me sad. but then i think about the things that i wont be missing out on. i guess there are always good things in every bad situation. at least i have real friends that want to do things that i think are fun. i cant believe how long i sat around never voicing my opinion on what i actually wanted.

i think i like writing in this because i know that no one reads it. and i can post pictures and look back at it and remember what was going on, in chronological order. i really wish that jenns roommate would pay me the 200 dollars, but it appears as though that is never going to happen.

there is so much wedding talk. daryl and yesenia. pat and nicole getting married. skye and sam. lesley and sam. some other young couple that pat and nicole are friends with. a british girl at trinity. kyle was the best man in a wedding tonight. zach borwn went to a wedding. christy went to a wedding. her sister went to another one. my sister is getting married.
when am i going to be in a wedding, well besides in january.

man smoking pot is cool! sike.