i finally got the pictures from ians camera.

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sigur ros.

big baby.


lights. probably about the time devin started crying.




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majestic + scooters.

zach and i.


pat and katy


anna + i after nicks scooter broke down and pat had to push it down 14th street to the gas station.


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car ride to sufjan + campfires + fondue party

pat, laura jane + katie.


katies socks.


fondue dinner party.


pat, devin + kyle campfire night.


smores.


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i just ate homemade pizza at my moms house.

46º outside.
feels like 41º
wind chill 33º.
i rode the scooter from midtown to kirkwood to grant park tonight.
i am the star server.
i had a nice talk today and i feel better about things.
i had a fun hang out day with dave. we shopped and napped and ate out and drove around.
dylan bought a new house.
our shirts/hoodies are out. if you wanna buy some, let me know.
its cold in our house. we dont have heat.
luckily it is a sleepover in my room everynight. body warmth.
its nice to be home. i never sleep here anymore.

right now its 51º outside. im on the porch with the halloween lights on with jesse. we are smoking cigarettes.
everyone is upstairs watching hotel rwanda.
skateboard chris called me and wanted to hang out. and i was going to but i decided to stay here. nick is coming over and hopefully we can sit on the porch and have some quality time. dave called me and maybe ill see him tonight too.
i had my first bundled up cold scooter ride tonight on the way home from work. i love being cold. this winter feels like a new beginning for me. i am able to layer my clothing and cover everything up. maybe a little symbolic. i dont know.
leigh is now here.
i actually like someone.
i dont think about spencer. soon it will be over a year, where i can say, what was i doing this time last year, and it wont be sad memories. i long for those days. or i guess those days to come.
when i can make new yearly memories.
ive started keeping a journal, and i hadnt written in it since september of last year. i was so in love when i wrote in it last. i had just turned 21. spencer and i had been dating for four months. oh the honeymoon period. a few weeks ago jesse chewed up a gift from spencer. i took a picture of it because i felt like it was a little reminiscent of how i feel about our relationship now. cheesy im sure. i saw so sad when i saw it. i threw myself on the bed. and i remembered when holden has ripped a little in the gift and spencer threw himself on the bed and cried. and said how he had wanted me to have it forever.
everyone is here, so i am going to wrap this up.

very bueno.

today we gave murphy a bath.
i finished nip tuck.
everyone come to our halloween party.

i started training tonight. its okay.
jessicas sister works there. they are so similar.

the curtains are coming along.
i am being taken out to a fancy dinner for repayment.
i love coming home to my house not knowing who is going to be in my bed.
im not being sarcastic.
i have 12 dollars and over 1000 dollars in beills due in the next week and a half.
my new job starts tomorrow.
jessica is finally smitten.
i have unburded my heart just a slight bit.
i am smitten.
off to see my lady.

let the job search begin.

gucci

worst shoot ever yesterday.
missed out on work last night.
i went to the vortex with leigh john carroll danel stabler and four other girls.
the owner bought us shots.
then i got another free one for 'being the cutest girl at the table'. how about that.
then we went to the star bar and i got drunk. i did a double shot of vodka.
devin is done with sex and the city season four now. i am going to have to buy five and six now.
i have to work at four.
i look like a fine arabian woman.
i havent washed my hair in 19 days. its awesome.
fixed the internet. i am an i.t. genius.

laying in bed at three am laughing so loudly at others misfortunes.
ie. bad personalities. terrible clothing. fucked up hair. ghetto.
'you so stupid gucci'

last night was fun.

what cat thing.

my mind is racing.
im cleaning.
i went running.
i bought pills.
i just took a bite of a zero bar.
im being quiet.
i decorated my mirrow.
i looked at old pictures.
i made ro study.
i miss lots of people.
i smoke too much.
i hurt my chest when i ran from above said statement.
tessa is in the room connected to mine.
my best friend is moving in tomorrow.
im registering my car tomorrow.
i have a thirteen year gap.
there are seven pillows on my bed.
only three people here tonight.
i need to diet badly.
my computer wont sign onto the internet.
i did a lot of laundry today.
i left work early because there were no tables.
im waiting on a phonecall as to not be clingy.
i make excuses for behaviors that dont fool anyone.
im running tomorrow.
im waking up at nine.
i miss my brother.
i like someone who is gardening when i wake up in the morning. or fixing a window.
when i wake up and walk into the kitchen there is a coffee cup with a spoon in it, waiting for me.
i love jesse.
he is asleep on the floor.

'lindsey, you really arent a ho. in retrospect to all the prudes that hang out. you should be reassured.'

this is everyday in my room.


last night was matts black and white party.


the decision was made.


leigh is 22.




cutest dog ever.






the boys.


lindsey + devin


taking off his suit


i have so many more pictures i want to post later.

leigh is moving to atlanta. if all goes well, she will be the next member of 303 glenwood ave.

this week i have slept in someone elses bed four out of five nights. i love his dog murphy, who looks like mocha. i like his house, the one he owns, and his skateboarding clothing. i also am the proud owner of a new purple toothbrush.

you spin a story like a spider spins a web.

matts black and white party was last night.
everyone looked wonderful.
it was leighs birthday on friday and i made her a chocolate heath bar cake with whipped cream icing.
mafia sucked.
i love everyone. really.
right now nick leigh and i are in bed and we are watching six feet under and sewing.
last night i went to daves and we had a nice sleep with murphy between us.
today i work and i want people to come and see me.
nick put my door knob back on and put up my lamps. hes so wonderful to me.
ro come home. now.
leigh dont go home.
this is your new home.
ahh.

make me...beautiful

hello internet world.
i have had two wonderful nights.
a real date. dinner and a movie.
nice notes.
out to mjq with everyone.
jessica dorman is a blessing to have back in my life. she is a real beauty.
all the ladies in my life are completely wonderful.
ro is the most fun most sweet girl i know.
anna is my little scooter darling.
katie is my sweet little funny roommate who shares clothing with me.
jessica is my old favorite back in my life.
and then devin. hes my secret keeping partner in crime.
im hooked on nip/tuck.
intellectual conversations.
renovated houses.
coffee and cigarettes in the morning.

its sunday and im on the couch with jesse.
im looking for a new job, i am applying at rathbuns, joel, and bazzaar. but at bazzaar i think you have to wear some french maid costume, but hopefully that is the cocktail waitress and not a server.

devin and i made a joint myspace account, for messaging and lurking, of course.

we have bonfires everynight and i am so happy about it.
there are so many good things going on in my life. and so many new people entering.

jessica is on her way over for dinner and a movie.
tomorrow is matt and skyes birthday and my interview for the internship.
tuesday i have a movie and dinner date with dave from work.
wednesday mjq with dylan
thursday work
friday party with chris
saturday black and white party and leigh in town.
sunday youngblood

what a fun life. i have new pictures to show later.

gmail account!
lindsey.knott@gmail.com
boys throwing up.
tight cuddling.
campfire.
cops/fireworks
friends