i cant stand it anymore!
i have to have an italian greyhound now!

on another note, i came across this website today:
www.cutelittlekittens.com
should i trade mine in? hes so bad.

im styling for a photo shoot this week or next. i hope my credit card comes soon, i have to buy the clothes!

last night i bit the bullet and made my drinks stronger. after three drinks and one shot of orange vodka i was so drunk.
i remember laughing a lot. and saying that a wendys cheeseburger was like a sweet delicious pie. whatever that meant. it sounded good in my head. i think spencer and i put on quite a show for everyone else. i called jessica to see when she was coming over and all i did was laugh hysterically the whole time.

i took spencer out to a fancy romantic dinner at la travola in the highlands on friday. after appitizers, side items, wine and martinis, entrees and dessert, i was out $95. we came out to find that my car had been towed, along with everyone else in the highlands that night.
when we got to the lot we saw my little civic bouncing off of the tow truck. $85 more dollars.
ive spent seven hundred dollars in three days.

im starting a regular exercise ruitine.
fitness assessment.
personal trainer.
nutritional counseling.
kickboxing on tuesdays and thursdays
step class on monday, wednesday, and friday.

what the fuck.

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a wrap up of 2004.

i cant believe how many places i have been this year. and not just physical locations.
at this time last year i was weening myself off of savannah and living with my mom. packing up to move to new york.
moved back home to atlanta. contemplated moving to la to live with my dad.
ended up in lots of therapy and lots of family and personal drama.
friendships fell through.
by march i was back in atlanta.
by may i had a wonderful new boyfriend, and i was so skinny.

now its january again. eight month long relationship still going strong.
about to start school. again. chosen major: textiles.
not vegan. not straightedge. not christian [not that i was last year anyway].
my bother is getting married.
my dad is finally happy.
i know who my real friends are. even if they live in savannah. or get sick at parties. or are training to be a navy seal. i know who they are. and they will always be here.

my life is finally coming together.
i only have one cat.
i have a roommate with no mental issues.
i have my own car. with my own payment and my own insurance.
i have a full time job and pay all my own bills.

it might be time to say i have finally grown up.

now all i need is that dream house/apartment with that certain someone, with our 36in flat screen tv, ikea furniture, and matching blue italian greyhounds named bella and [insert name here].

i think 2005 is going to be a good one.

as for now, im nursing spencer back to health after his tonsil surgery this morning. ice cream and applesauce. im going to have quite a skinny boyfriend by the end of this.