my little exsistentialist

these arms are snakes and isis last night.
i had a panic attack and had to leave and missed isis.
im so stupid. why was i cursed with these problems.

ive been reading this book. existentialism and human emotions and it is so good. i feel so smart.
spencer is afraid i am going to stop caring about everything and i wont like him anymore.
its so opposite.

conquuer yourself rather than the world
-descartes

man is nothing else than his plan; he exists only to the extent that he fulfills himself; he is therefore nothing else than the ensemble of his acts, nothing else than his life
-sarte

existentialism isnt so atheistic that it wears itself out showing that god doesnt exsist. rather, it declares that even if god did exists, that would change nothing. there youve got our point of view. not that we believe god exists, but we think that the problem of his existence is not the issue. in this sense exsistentialism is optimistic, a doctrine of action, and it is plain dishonesty for christians to make no distinction between their own despair and our and then to call us depressing
-sarte

hamburger party at nicoles tonight.

next friday is ericas documentary and vegan potluck night. nicole and i are making the most delicious vegan chocolate cake ever.

preview on the15th!

fuck anxiety seriously.

jingle bells x eight months = worse than happy birthday

friday night i went to estoria with spencer, patrick, and nicole. we kept ordering more and more drinks since i am 21 and spencer is 31. patrick and nicole didnt have ids. i wonder why they werent suspicious.
needless to say, by the end of the night three out of four were completely drunk.
makes the future seem even more fun.
hopefully those two years they are in scotland will pass by quickly.

i drove to savannah and got leigh. we drove straight to gwinnett to see jimmy eat world then came home and made sandwiches. ive got another person hooked on arrested developement.

christmastime is here.

my tree got knocked over for the third time.

more shopping today.

best friends in different cities.

left work early because im sick.
watched the saddest movie called short cuts.
my lip is swollen. see below for details.





i cant figure out how this happened, but it hurts and its ugly. it looks like i only have one front tooth.

here is holden, the little devil.



and here is what my tree looks like after being knocked over twice by him.



you will notice the glitter and ornament on the ground.

spencer caratti is love
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i dont even have livejournal and i took this. how it happens i have no idea. i only told it what color i liked and what season and what my journal was like. ha. cute.
seven month anniversary today.
were cute.